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A bit of back pain when you bend
down, terrified about starting credit, and some midnight margaritas ;). Ladies
and Gentlemen-folk, I present to you… *drum roll* The crisp age of twenty. Almost
two months ago, on January 25th, 2025, I turned twenty years young; and
I surely brought twenty in with a BANG! How do I feel, you may ask? Honestly, a bit everywhere,
quite wild I would say.
I like to think of my birthday as another personal new year, another year of reflection and beautiful growth. I love to tell people all the time that “I’m extra”. I was surely indeed “extra” on my twentieth birthday. No, I didn’t have any friends to spend my birthday with, nor did I have my family with me at the time or let alone a man. So, what better way to spend your birthday than by yourself? Some may say “Oh Shamari, that’s pretty sad, you must feel lonely.” Well, not exactly, sweetheart. I am the QUEEN of being alone. I have an amazing time whilst being alone on various occasions. I have dedicated the past two or three years in getting to know myself on a deeper level. Learning to accept all parts of me, whether it’s the beautiful, good, bad, or ugly. I truly accept all parts of myself just the way the Most High God has made me. I have learned on this journey of self-love, that it is okay to be alone for a period. It gives you a moment to truly hear yourself. You get to hear your own voice of advice, guidance, wisdom, love, etc. We constantly soak up what others’ perception of us are, and that is no way to live life (take It from me, I’ve been listening to others’ opinions for quite some time now).
My birthday began with me waking up at 4 a.m. and thanking God, the Divine, the Mother and the Father for the improvement I have made. I was crying, praying, and journaling about how far I have come from pretending to be something that I am not, to fully embracing my authentic self, no matter how others’ may perceive me. What has helped me with this is learning that “other people’s perception of me, is none of my business.” If I know that I am being my full authentic self and treating others with the upmost kindness and respect, that is absolutely enough for me. I then decided to do what every girl, young lady, and woman loves to do… SHOPPING! I went to Wal-Mart first to pick up some necessities, you know, the average joe of grocery shopping. Then, I went and did a bit of window shopping at Cato and TJ-Maxx. There were some highly unique finds in there, but I had to save the damage that I was going to do to my bank account for later at the store I have been waiting to go to! That store was “Boujee Spirit” in Orangeburg, South Carolina. Guessing by the name of the store, you knew exactly what was going down here. Boujee Spirit is a metaphysical store which supplies all your spiritual, mystical, and curious needs. I was like a kid in a candy store! Crystals, dream catchers, spell books, candles, and the fresh smell of incense with a hint of Florida water. I spend almost one-hundred dollars in the store! The owner showed me around, and told me everything about her products, and was excited about everything I was interested in. She even gave me two free incenses since it was my birthday! How amazing was that?! After greatly damaging my bank account and almost going bankrupt, I decided to head back to my dorm to pamper myself more and prepare to take myself out to dinner. I did my own nails, hair, and toes. I even made my own jewelry that I wore for that night. Well, I made my own anklets, should I say. I got all dolled up and took a peaceful walk to Rosalie’s, a Mexican restaurant with amazing fajitas and the sweetest tea that’ll make you look at your southern mom’s tea with a side eye. Before I ordered my food, I took fabulous pictures as the by passers stared and some giving amazing compliments. A table of a close-nit family seen me all dressed up and eating alone, they thought someone had stood me up on a date, but I kindly told them that it was my birthday, and that it was impossible for anyone to stand up such a beautiful lady such as myself. We all had a great laugh, and one of the women insisted on buying me a margarita of my choice. I happily obliged and took the offer of getting a free margarita. I mean, it was free! Wouldn’t you have did the same? Trust me, if it was a Ted Bundy move, I would have known.
Overall, my twentieth birthday was a magical night filled with love. I got messages from so many kind people who wished me well. My goal was to have a peaceful birthday without any interruptions, agitations, and an overall perfect day. Which is exactly what I received. When I say that this birthday was one of the best ones I have ever had in a very long time. It may not have been everyone else’s “ideal birthday” (whatever that may mean), but it was perfect and hella ideal for me! What was your big day to remember? Because my twentieth birthday is going down in the history books.
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